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three things - finality, blasphemy and human condition
and duality and singularity and probably so many things I cannot and will not know A friend in life recently harbored an idea in my head. He told me that he knows me to be looking for some kind of a finality. I loved the way he put it. So much so that I fed that idea before I bred it. I knew I was going to love what it bred as well and I do. It birthed today into words and it is bloody beautiful, strokes my erect need for stimulation and to outlast. But that offspring - much
ab ja na
Jun 12, 20251 min read


God is exquisitely sadistic, glory to god
whoa you should see your expression as you read that In comparison to the claim that God is dead my claim pales in comparison. But it does not really occur to anybody that death is a human finality and assigning such a finality to God defeats the purpose. Why on earth am I capitalizing the G when I type God? oh god why god There I did it. I did it in a statement that is about God too. But what about the fear of god? oh no ! forgive me. Wait !!! 3 exclamation marks are enough
ab ja na
Jun 10, 20254 min read


the unanswerable what or what 'what'?
Why can’t we resign from this world. It is programmatically persistent with delivering an exhaustion that seem to affect everything about being a human. Will to power and life and supremacy does not cut it no matter what words you grease it with into books and films and hyper pattern collecting - replicating arsine intelligent systems. I mean what is the life expectancy of words. If you can have a dramatic epiphany as you try to ponder that; you can then ask yourself if at an
ab ja na
May 30, 20253 min read


What happens after Ego Death
There is a guaranteed afterlife - that is if you are alive Well i guess the title and the snippet tells it for you all attention destitute ephemeral thinkers. I am grumpy and salty sorry but yeah i mean ego death is rare but if you have done it, boy then you know its afterlife and is it haunted ! Yeah park that thought of ego never dying and afterlife is but just a thing you allude the 'never dying’ to. Let’s stay on this thought shall we? It has an afterlife and it walks hau
ab ja na
Apr 15, 20251 min read


Don't trust your eyes.
Or at least trust them last, never first. All that glitters is gold, oh my god so much gold Isn’t sight the most flawed of all senses that humans rely on? It has to be. We are so content with what we see, we find it easy to judge what we see with the eyes, the other senses are parked. Satiating the experience that begins and ends as a treat for eyes is literally our pressing need. As I am writing this I found myself wonder if it is our laziness which is natural because well (
ab ja na
Apr 14, 20253 min read


We are different because we can be self aware
But we choose not to. Mostly we are self aware but we do not really find the willingness to do it to a level where we can guarantee that something efficient and novel would come out of it, that we would become a version of ourselves that is drastically different from what we can even imagine. The more I imagine about saying the right thing for the right reason, I end up not doing it at all. It has been a few days since I sat myself down with the objective of writing this no m
ab ja na
Mar 6, 202410 min read
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