God is exquisitely sadistic, glory to god

whoa you should see your expression as you read that

In comparison to the claim that God is dead my claim pales in comparison. But it does not really occur to anybody that death is a human finality and assigning such a finality to God defeats the purpose. Why on earth am I capitalizing the G when I type God?

oh god why god

There I did it. I did it in a statement that is about God too. But what about the fear of god? oh no ! forgive me.

Wait !!!

3 exclamation marks are enough because this is not as revelatory to me. Fear is a human construct. Capitalization is an all too basal human requirement. God is not checking grammar and punctuation. Those are all human.

Oh shit !

So god does not exist?

That need is also all too human. To want to have two sides which even if we are not color blind we chose to use the metaphor of black and white to describe and some polished grey are with yellow polka dots in between. The area we use to equivocate when asked about whether God exists or does not.

Now you know what you are about to read. Yes. “Exist” is an all too human way to describe being. So is being.

I have to adopt and manufacture conviction to every fraction that makes up the idea of self and the thoughts that such a state of being entails for me to write it. Now that I have adopted and manufactured it, I have no issue with the idea of God. But I have issue with everyone regardless of their belief or lack of it assuming they know God and what God is. The very imbecile construct that something beyond language is contained into three letters, capitalized inconsistently and talked about once again from opposite sides of table the pure need for self validation.

Of course that again is a construct. My own. I already established that so instead of the programming that you constitute of where only an adversary or ally is all that makes sense of your being; try and possibly deny yourself that. That is let us say the uniform necessary in the laboratory of thinking.

So where in all this is god a sadist, especially when sadism is a terminology our human psyche used to denote a pattern that works against it.

Ideally god is just an artist. But don’t go to the whole oh he created humans and he destroyed humans crap.

I cannot seem to unravel the singularity that “is”.

That is all it is. A singularity. Everything subjective to human experience and everything that is not - the duality that we are inclined to understand and isolate conveniently is but a singularity. This is not about some yin and yang either which is again a conveniently manufactured concept to preach, pray and create allies and adversaries and therefore “be.”

So there is all the microcosm as we call it and the macrocosm which is a favorable way to describe the cosmos and the inklings of us stroking the idea that panpsychism in literature - as a device to pique readers.

Well shit, that’s what i am doing too, without doing it, while actively trying to go against it in these annoyingly long rebellious bunch of sentences.

At this point, did you get why God is a sadist? Let me paraphrase batterphrase.

In a vivarium there lived many rats. They all thought they had free will and everything they did was based on their own free will. Eating poisoned food and walking head first into shock experiments was all out of their free will. One rat did nothing. Another waited for The Pied Piper. One did nothing but just be and die. There was a lot of nomenclature thrown among them against each other as to who is supreme among them and closest to the uber supreme.

Until the wisest rat master among them(according to them) said,

“i have nothing to say. there is no escape. the gods are watching us and it does not matter what we make up in our head and how much it is accurate in our collective thinking systems. We are just being until we stop beings. For solace from the absolute inescapability we think our thinking will help us escape from let’s call ourselves art. Don’t push that either, going around telling that we are God’s art. You already read why.”

God and us are not even comparable in size and correlation to lab rats vs human scientists. But if human words must be used, the singularity that I call God and the “panpsyche” is exquisitely artistically sadistic because we are such entertainment.

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In other news I am seething as I seek to be possessed and consumed until my abyss is filled. I have looked long enough, hard enough and I am tired. Very tired.