So now what? What would you do?

Omnes Eodem Cogimur. Omnes Veritas Ficta

In the journey to understand further, the smallest questions become the deepest and most unfathomable ones. Something as simple as,

‘What now’

is such a scathing call for endless ponder. In order to confront and find headway to that question of the moment think with me in the context of,

‘Why do I need a what now?’.

Time conditions me to start searching for the answer from the very bottom. The question the multitudes would have in regards to this pursuit I have undertaken is - Why do all this, why think so much? Why can’t I just be? Why not just live, just party and be merry and die? What they just cannot seem to grasp is that is exactly what I am doing. My work and my journey is exactly this - this is my party, this is my being merry and this is my being so incredibly alive before death.

Not to go from a 0 to 100 with just a paragraph break but if you have read my notes and findings previously, then you know there is nothing non fictitious about our existence. The very idea of consciousness or being is itself a fiction.

I think therefore I am. ‘I’ and ‘‘think and ‘therefore’ and ‘am’ is all fiction. Fiction that compels interpretation and representation solely because of the existence of linguistics or more broadly communication. This makes me wonder if communication is the true causality that we are looking for. Did everything become and be because of our need to communicate? I used the word ‘need’ but it is not an inherent, all consuming need I am alluding to. In the learning realm where there is no self or individual or a requirement such as that what is but a need to communicate?

Nihilism does seep in as if to say,

“Would you accept me now as a foregone conclusion and call it quits?”

But cessation is not the destination, so it is not nihilism, nor is it any other containing linguistic instrument the goal of it.

Same way a simple paradox is the circular nature of the pursuit. A monkey with a rock is what started it and in the end it realizes that it is just a monkey with a rock and that is all there is to it. So why then did I go in a circle.

The answer is ridiculously pertinent to my journey because of how passionately I look to negate myself. It is my inability to practice unconditional tolerance to the rest of the monkeys. Of all things that a monkey could do with a rock, there isn’t one that is more noble or morally righteous than the other. Nor is there one that offers evidence to being more efficient than others.

If you do not see what I am illustrating, the entirety of duality comes out of a need to communicate. There is the choice to not communicate and there is the choice to communicate. But if those choices were not there, it would just be about ‘just being’ like a plant or an animal or anything that exists. Observation, the measures and measuring already put gigantic conditions on any given thing. Everything we perceive starts with a duality - including our very idea of self.

So what is not an outcome of language and observation?

A monkey can look at a rock. A monkey can try to eat it. Use it to scratch its butt. Use it to masturbate. Use it as a pillow.

It can also use it as a weapon to defend itself. It can use it to kill what threatens it or defend itself.

Enter humans. We had to define the rock which is alright. We had to draw and write and roll it. Well within nature, right. Then create fire with it, study the fire that came out of it, then study the constituents of what caused fire as a reaction, still well within nature.

But the humans that is so taken over by a need to make other people see the rock, rub it on their faces, not just wear it as a crown but having to show it and then ridicule others for not doing the same - this is where it is getting insanely questionable. This is where going in a circle is warranted.

Between that one being with total lack of sense, sanity or so called civilization and the one who has gone the full circle, there is only marginal difference. They both seem out of the ordinary thanks to the beings that are in the spectrum in between them. The ones who did not stay where the circle started nor did they care to complete it. In fact they just seem to fall somewhere inside the circle because they hung on the coattails of the ones who were going the full circle. Refer to my last note - copying in the exams. I touched on them in a passionate diatribe.

So this is the need for,

‘What now?’

Those beings that makes the majority and believes that the state of being a majority somehow means they are the world. These beings being so hellbent on making it hard for everyone else to exist. Sheep herding themselves over and over and falling into a hole but celebrating it as martyrdom and therefore more sheep doing it.

This is not about social hierarchy. This is not to advocate systems or any isms whatsoever. But this is about needing a pressing continuing ‘what now?’

The greatest hindrance for the ‘what now’ that could radically change existence is false need for communication. The greatest steroid for completely unnecessary need for communication is the construct of social communication and its atrocious downgrade of what ‘sharing’ as a concept was meant to be.

Considering how corrupted and polluted forms, formats, instruments and methods of communication has become and finding that it is not enough to unsubscribe from the rage-baited rat race once or twice but instead perpetually -I cannot see if there is any awakening to come.